Ruang Si Rockstar

language

2012-01-28T20:39:00.000+08:00

kadang bila kita bercakap dalam bahasa kita sahaja yang faham pon susah juga. ataupun bahasa yang tak semua faham. i mean yang berfikir luar dari kotak, ataupun tempurung, susah nak jumpa. bukan cara aku untuk bercakap A dan orang memahaminya A. bukan sebab meninggi diri, tapi aku lebih suka orang berusaha daripada memberi terus kepada yang menghulur. dan mungkin sebab ini juga aku lebih suka simpan di dalam mulut sendiri daripada menyuap ke mulut yang lain.

tak faham? makanya kau bukanlah dari golongan yang susah untuk dijumpai itu.

says it all

2012-01-28T19:42:00.000+08:00

sekian

2012-01-04T19:35:00.002+08:00

haha. wrong answer. i have made up my mind.

that's it

2012-01-03T21:26:00.000+08:00

you will be sorry. all the time in the world is not mine to be spent with waiting for you.

21 years of age

2011-12-19T00:48:00.000+08:00

exhausted. perkataan yang paling tepat. letih nya badan. letih nya otak. umur baru 21 tahun dan letih macam ni. 21 dah rasa macam 50. baru belajar. tak dapat nak bayang macam mana bila kerja nanti letihnya. letih letih letih. waktu tidur pukul 6 pagi, bangun pukul 9 pagi dah jadi rutin rasanya. nak berehat, tapi tak boleh. nak tidur pon kena fikir banyak kali, takut menyesal di kemudian hari. kadang-kadang rasa nak putus asa, tapi bila mengenangkan lagi sikit lagi nak habis semua letih ni, teruskan je lah langkah yang lemah ni. i have to work my hardest now. hopefully, by the end of the day, everything turned out well. i need the rest. sikit lagi.

Rumour

2011-11-27T18:46:00.002+08:00

Where are you? I miss you. Adele's wrong. It is very hard for me to find one. I miss you.

If you go away on this summer's day,
Then you might as well take the sun away
All the birds that flew in the summer sky
When our love was new and our hearts were high
When the day was young and the nights were long
And the moon stood still for the night bird's song
If you go away, if you go away, if you go away.

But if you stay, I'll make you a day
Like no day has been, or will be again
We'll sail on the sun, we'll ride on the rain
And talk to the trees and worship the wind
But if you go, I'll understand
Leave me just enough love to fill up my hand
If you go away, if you go away, if you go away.

If you go, as I know you will
You must tell the world to stop turning
Till you return again, if you ever do,
For what good is love without loving you?
Can I tell you now, as you turn to go
I'll be dying slowly till the next hello
If you go away, if you go away, if you go away.

But if you stay, I'll make you a night
Like no night has been, or will be again
I'll sail on your smile, I'll ride on your touch
I'll talk to your eyes that I love so much
But if you go, I won't cry
Though the good is gone from the word goodbye
If you go away, if you go away, if you go away.

If you go away, as I know you must
There is nothing left in this world to trust
Just an empty room, full of empty space
Like the empty look I see on your face
I'd have been the shadow of your shadow
If you might have kept me by your side
If you go away, if you go away, if you go away.

rindu

2011-10-22T21:13:00.005+08:00

Currently, I'm staying with Kak Long in Shah Alam since I still have one more year of school before going for internship. Right now, I'm missing my parents so much. Why? I just can't stay a day without having them listens to my all sorts of story. My parents temporary home is at Gombak. A 45minutes of journey from Shah Alam to Gombak. I have a car, then why don't I just go back home since it's weekend? I'm a BSc (Hons) Information System Engineering part 5 student. Maybe it's just me, but as an ISE student, i don't have an extra time to be wasted since there are tons of assignments, projects, tutorials, quizzes and tests that I have to face each week. I found that putting a full commitment to my study is the only way for me right now. A way for me to take care of my parents when they grow older and needs me. But right now, I miss them. I miss my family. I wish they are living with me here in Shah Alam.

timeline

2011-08-14T15:38:00.000+08:00

I think this was Christina Perri's past; her love life

Tragedy - you never there for me like i'm there for you
The Lonely - you left me, alone.. i lost myself
Sad Song - trying to figure where did i do wrong
Bluebird - getting over you, find someone else
Penguin - found someone else, but not letting him in yet
Black + Blue - finally over you, happy with that someone else
Arms - that someone else always there for me
Distance - i like him, but he haven't officially let me in his life, so i keep a distance
Miles - holding on through the obstacles between us
Jar of Hearts - you came back into my life, pleading for me to take you back
Daydream - i love my relationship right now, please stand where you are, don't take another step ahead
Mine - i know you are suffering but i suffered first
Bang Bang Bang - you came back for me because she did to you what you did to me

yup, exactly the same as mine

promote

2011-08-08T20:25:00.004+08:00

Kak Long punya kerja

nak tengok-tengok sila klik sini

zipped

2011-08-07T21:41:00.002+08:00

i don't want to return any of yours until you figure out what's going on, but i'm not gonna tell you anything

so much deeper

2011-07-31T12:16:00.000+08:00

A penny for my thoughts, oh no, I'll sell them for a dollar
They're worth so much more after I'm a goner
And maybe then you'll hear the words I been singing

Funny when you're dead how people start listening

me

2011-07-03T15:24:00.000+08:00

my priorities in life

family
works
friends
special person
entertainment

perbezaan

2011-07-01T19:15:00.000+08:00

ya ya ya, saya tahu saya juga yang sibuk-sibuk mengatakan ianya sangat susah sebelum ini dan mungkin menakutkan anda-anda. but i guess, if you are not willing to take the challenge, then maybe you really not meant to be in this field. and i don't mind, masing-masing suap mulut masing-masing.

karma II

2011-06-21T22:41:00.000+08:00

nampak tak? dah nampak ke belum? yang bumi ni bulat bentuknya, dan ia berputar. dan jadinya yang berada di atas akan di bawah, dan yang di bawah akan ke atas. bila kita enak membuang yang kita tak nampak nilai harganya, tiba-tiba pergi pula yang kita terlalu bergantung keatasnya. dah rasa? belum lagi, tapi waktu itu akan tiba juga, jangan risau. sebab kita tidak akan dapat lari dari merasa kejatuhan dalam hidup. baru dapat tahu apa erti sakit. dari kanan keluar ke kiri, nasihat-nasihat berlalu begitu sahaja. tak apa, tak apa, tanggungjawab tetap tanggungjawab, yang tidak terlaksana itu yang perlu diberi perhatian. susah nak faham? menara gading lagi susah nak gapai.

tersirat lebih dari tersurat

Misinterpret

2011-06-09T21:12:00.000+08:00

Those are words i wish you said, but that's not how it went because you gave up on us in the end.

time flies

2011-05-29T20:48:00.000+08:00

kadang-kadang yang luar tu menipu mata, yang di dalam tidak diambil kira, makanya luruh lah rasa yang hanya di atas dan di dalam yang tahu. kalau di luah pun belum tentu dapat selesai bila hati mendahului akal, nafsu mendahului keperluan. bila nak berakhir semua ni?

2011-05-16T20:20:00.001+08:00

and now you want to put the blame on me? fuck you!!

annoying

2011-05-15T22:44:00.001+08:00

zaman myspace dah lama lepas laaa weyh

kerja

2011-05-15T16:18:00.000+08:00

tak. kau tak tahu macam mana rasa penatnya. nak bayang juga mungkin tak mampu. penat yang disebabkan bukan kerana menangguh, tapi kesuntukan masa yang tidak dapat dielakkan dan kekurangan tangan untuk bekerja. aku tak mengeluh, tapi kalau ada yang tak faham, tapi cuba memahami, ianya sangatlah membantu.

truth

2011-05-07T02:52:00.000+08:00

i've got what i want, but i don't have what i need.
i don't know how, i cannot stop.
this thing that going on me is not working.
being numb doesn't bring me anywhere.

No Strings Attached.
(500) Days of Summer.
P/S I Love You.

those would explains everything

monolog

2011-05-01T01:20:00.001+08:00

merasa sesuatu yang tidak patut dirasa. berhenti, tolong berhenti, yang dahulu tidak jumpa sudahnya lagi. jangan berjalan, terus berlari semampu yang mungkin. aku penat, bukan tubuh, tapi hati, takut-takut yang hancur dahulu tidak ada jalan pulihnya. tolong.

tidak, kau takkan pernah faham

at last!

2011-04-28T01:00:00.002+08:00

And I've been meaning to say this to you.

My heart isn't black and blue anymore

And your words don't mean a thing

Their sung, in vain

new chapter

2011-04-24T17:49:00.002+08:00

i'm feeling different, even though it may not last long, but it is good, for me at least, thank you. :)

feeling good

2011-04-23T23:30:00.001+08:00

thank you. it was such a release. it's been a long time since people treated me like that :)

don't

2011-04-22T12:27:00.000+08:00

please don't be too nice to everyone, especially me, i'm too fragile, and i've hurt enough ='(

m with the !@#$ face

2011-04-20T23:44:00.000+08:00

and by that, i disgust you more. that's a total full stop. and may your life never be happy, every single day. whenever i see you, i will make that shit face that represent you, this is my promise.

sakit

2011-04-20T23:29:00.000+08:00

Ya Allah Ya Tuhanku, Kau balas lah yang setimpalnya.

hati

2011-03-05T18:34:00.000+08:00

apa jadi kalau semua benda kita buat ikut hati?
ikut suka hati kita lah kan
baru lah puas hati kan?
tapi sebab apa kita tak sentiasa buat macam tu?
tipu laaaa kalau nak kata kita tak pernah buat apa-apa benda ikut hati
kenapa kadang-kadang tu kita berhenti berfikir dari ikut membuta tuli apa yang hati kita kata?
sebab orang lain pun ada hati kan?
berhenti sebab kita terfikir tentang hati orang lain
bagusnya kalau kita boleh sentiasa buat macam tu kan?
tapi kalau asyik buat macam tu pon susah juga
kita sibuk jaga hati orang, tapi hati kita?
sebab kita tak ikut kata hati kita, mestilah ada rasa sakit tu kan?
tapi tak apa lah, biarlah hati kita sakit, asalkan hati orang lain senang
aku suka tutup mulut aku bila aku taknak ikut kata hati aku
just saying....

2011-02-26T01:41:00.002+08:00

i wonder, how does it feels to be mean?

typical

2011-02-26T01:33:00.000+08:00

“We don’t choose who we fall in love with and it never works out the way it should.”

No Strings Attached, 2011

notice

2011-02-22T18:15:00.001+08:00

i am not cold or sombong or whatever cold person does
i just don't talk much to whom i'm not comfortable with yet
not even much, maybe lesser than little
i don't have way to start conversation
finding a topic is probably like climbing up hill
often i treat people the same way they treated me
so don't call me that
or spread the rumors
because i'm not
maybe this is ridiculous but i have the sense of being shy
just saying =)

p/s: don't get comfortable with me because then i can never stop talking

sad song

2011-02-18T23:24:00.001+08:00

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pernah tak rasa bagaimana tiba-tiba semua lagu sedih berkait dengan kisah kita? kebanyakkan dialog dalam filem-filem sedih seperti memerli-merli kita? cerita-cerita sedih orang lain macam lebih kurang cerita sedih kita? semua kata-kata semangat, artikel-artikel berpusu-pusu datang menasihatkan kita?aku pernah, malahan sedang menghadapinya saat ini.

I'M SORRY. ya, aku minta maaf, kepada sesiapa yang aku telah sakiti. salah yang besar, mahupun kecil. post ni sepatutnya dah lama aku post, tapi baru sekarang tergeraknya aku untuk mengarang dan secara terbukanya untuk meminta maaf. bukan untuk satu orang yang tertentu, tapi kepada sesiapa sahaja yang aku telah sakiti, dari zaman sekolah lagi, hinggalah saat ini. mungkin tergeraknya aku untuk mengarang post ini kerana satu keadaan yang sangat menyakitkan telah melanda satu bahagian hidup aku, yang membuka mata aku tentang karma. apa yang kita buat, kita akan dapat kembali. ya, mungkin aku layak menerimanya, dan sekarang aku terlalu sakit untuk menghadapinya. mungkin ramai yang tidak perasan yang sekarang aku selalu dalam keadaan bersendirian, satu keadaan yang sangat susah kerana fikiran ini terlalu bebas memikirkan perkara yang tidak sepatutnya, ditambah dengan perasaan busuk yang terperangkap dalam hati ini. aku merasakan terpaksa untuk menulis di dalam blog aku ini sebab aku tak sanggup untuk berkongsi kisah yang perit yang aku lalui ini kepada sesiapa. dan aku tak rasa orang yang tidak berada di tempat aku akan faham apa yang hanya aku dan Allah yang merasakannya. dalam keadaan aku yang sebawah ini, aku mahu meminta maaf kepada sesiapa sahaja yang terlibat, mengharapkan Allah boleh meringankan rasa sakit dalam hati ni. kesalahan yang tidak patut aku lakukan tu semua berpunca dari sikap tidak matang yang masih bertapak dalam diri aku ni. aku masih merangkak mencari-cari bagaimana untuk tiba ke fasa itu. masih perlukan tunjuk ajar. masih perlukan cahaya yang pimpin aku ke arah itu. aku tiada kekuatan untuk meminta maaf secara berhadapan, aku harap post ini, dan video di atas dapat menebus kesalahan aku.

**lagu ini menyimpulkan segala yang aku ingin katakan, if anyone care

Christina Perri - Sad Song

Today I'm gonna write a sad song
I'm gonna make it really long
So that everyone can see
That I'm very unhappy

I wish I wasn't always wrong
I wish it wasn't always my fault
The finger which your pointing has knocked me on my knees
So I guess what's only left is...

I'm sorry, it's not like me
It's maturity that I'm lacking
So don't, don't let me go
Just let me know that to grow up can go slow

I wonder what my mom and dad would say
If I told them that I cry each day
And it's hard enough to live so far away

I wish I wasn't always alone
I wish it wasn't always so cold
When the party is over how will I get home?
And all you need to know is

I'm sorry, it's not like me
It's maturity I'm lacking
So don't, don't let me go
Just let me know that to grow up can go slow

All the rules are meant to bend
And you swore you were my friend
Now I have to start all over again

But I'm so sorry, it's not like me
It's maturity that I'm lacking
So don't, don't let me go
Oh let me know that to grow up can go slow

2011-02-01T09:37:00.003+08:00

click here

2011-01-15T20:53:00.001+08:00

ohh, it's okay, maybe they just passing by

need a favor

2011-01-08T19:29:00.003+08:00

for you; who read this blog or just walking in
can you leave a comment on this post
a "Hi" or simple self-introduction will do
and can you tell me where did you find this blog?
if you don't have a blogspot account, you can just be an anonymous
i'm just wondering, why do i have non-Malaysian visitors?
and it's just not one or two

p/s:Malaysian visitors comment also needed =)

2011-01-05T14:00:00.002+08:00

demam dah masuk 5 hari
badan lemah sangat2
makan pon tak berapa nak lalu
Ya Allah
berat rasanya aku menanggung ujianMu ini
jauhilah segala yang buruk daripada aku

tiada kerja (100 truths)

2010-12-27T23:45:00.004+08:00

1. Real name: Syaheila bt Abd Majid
2. Nickname(s): sha, syah, sheila, lala, rockstar(LOL)
3. Zodiac Sign: cancer
4. Male or Female: female
5. Elementary School: SKPJP, SRA Al-Fallah
6. High School: SMKBL, SMTK
7. College: UiTM Arau, UiTM Shah Alam
8. Hair color: black
9. Tall or short : short
10. TV or XBOX : i want XBOX but there's just TV =(
11. Sweats or Jeans: slack
12. Phone or Camera: camera
13. Health Freak: no
14. Orange or Apple: apple
15. Do you have a crush on someone: yes
16. Eat or Drink: drink
17. Piercings: none
18. Pepsi or Coke: coke
HAVE YOU EVER?
19. Been in an airplane: no but soon
20. Been in a relationship: yes
21. Been in a car accident: yes
22. Been in prison: HAHA, are you out of your mind?
FIRSTS?
23. First piercing: not yet
24. First best friend: Noor Shuhada bt Abu Bakar
25. First award: in elementary school i guess
26. First crush: can't remember
27. First word: how should i know?
28. First kiss : hihihihi
LAST?
29. Last person you talked to in person: kaklong
30. Last person you texted: imal
31. Last person you watched a movie with: mates
32. Last food you ate : dinner cooked by myself
33. Last movie you watched : My soul to take
34. Last song you listened to: Paramore - All we know
35. Last thing you bought: shirt
36. Last person you hugged: shu
FAVORITES?
37. Food: burgers
38. Drink: coke, green tea lipton
39. Skirts or dress : n/a
40. Flower: never receive one
41. Animal: catssssssssss
42. Colours: black, yellow
43. Movies: Bend it like Beckham, The Runaways
44. Subjects: Programming
HAVE YOU EVER:
(Put an X in the brackets if yes )
45. [ X ] fell in love with someone
46. [ ] celebrated Halloween
47. [ X ] had your heart broken.
48. [ X ] went over the minutes/texts on your cell phone.
49. [X ] had someone question my sexual orientation.
50. [ X ] copy friends' answers in exam.
51. [ ] got pregnant.
52. [ ] had an abortion.
53. [ X ] did something I regret.
54. [ X ] broke a promise.
55. [ X ] hide a secret.
56. [ X ] pretended to be happy.
57. [ X ] met someone who changed your life.
58. [ X ] pretended to be sick
59. [ ] left the country.
60. [ X] tried something you normally wouldn't try and liked it. (not in a wrong way.)
61. [ X ] cried over the silliest thing.
62. [ X ] ran a mile.
63. [ X] went to the beach with your best friend.
64. [ X] kick someone's leg
65. [ X ] hated someone.
66. [ ] stayed single for 2 years
RIGHT NOW
67. Eating: no
68. Drinking: no
69. Listening: no
70. Sitting/Laying: sitting
71. Plans for today: it's already the end of the day but nothing special
72. Waiting: for these questions to reach the end
YOUR FUTURE:
73. Want kids? 2minimum, 3 maximum
74. Want to get married? yes, definitely =)
75. Career: System Developer
76. Lips or Eyes: lips
77. Shorter or Taller: the same, but taller should be nice
78. Romantic or Spontaneous : spontaneously romantic
79. Cook for wife / husband: i'll try my best
80. House: a very nice big comfortable house
81. In relationship with: my future husband
82. Looks or personality: personality, looks is a bonus
HAVE YOU EVER:
83. Lost glasses/contacts: no
84. Stay up for 24 hours: almost maybe?
85. Watching cartoon: yes
86. Killed somebody: not yet
87. Broken someone's heart: yes and i am sorry
88. Been in love: yes
89. Cried when someone died: yes
DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
90. Yourself: yes sometimes
91. Miracles: it should be takdir, yes
92. Love at first sight: haha, nafsuuuuu, but maybe yes
93. Heaven: yes
94. Santa Claus: no
95. First date : it should lead to somewhere
96. Kiss on the first date: no
TRUTHFULLY:
97. Is there one person you want to be with right now: yes
98. Do you know who your real friends are: yes, clearly
99. Do you believe in ALLAH: with no doubt, my faith always to Allah
100. Post as 100 truths? : kind of
TAG TO THEM:
suit yourself

i dropped my jaw

2010-12-23T16:26:00.005+08:00

and she answered this!

oh my, i'm speechless

just ignore that i have only 2 message, lameeeee -_-

kipas susah mati

2010-12-23T11:49:00.007+08:00

okay2
i know this is boring
tapi nak buat macam mana kan, aku kan peminat tahap hardcore Paramore
kalau tak berminat nak baca, it's okay, the close button has never been disabled pon

have you guys read what Josh and Zac Farro posted about the reasons of exiting Paramore?
kalau belum, please read more
and this was confirmed legit by Josh himself on the youtube

and my post here adalah untuk mengutarakan pendapat aku tentang cerita Josh and Zac ni, serta the band itself; Paramore

what a douche! yeahhh, this is for Josh and Zac. come on laaa, do you really have to say all those things? for what? for taking down the Paramore yang korang tak dapat nak stay in tu? because without Hayley you guys are nothing! that's why laaa korang yang kena keluar dari Paramore, not the other three. so, you guys decide Paramore is yours or nothing lah? you are so 'mature' in making decision. yeahhh. and you blame it all on Hayley; as my concern, the one who bring up Paramore to where it stand today. yes, with no doubt, you guys made great music together, but with this attitude, pfffffftttttttttttt, nothing to respect lah! macam budak kecik. kaw sakit2 hati dengan dia pon kaw dated her for a few years jugak. what a pathetic guy laa you josh! ni bini kaw si Jenna tu ke yang suroh tulis. pffffffftttttt. you guys just can't seem to terima yang lead singer always, always get more attention from the fans than the others. come on laaa, this is not just happening in your band. kalau Hayley tu nak kejar duit, anytime she can carry on with her solo career, since she already has her fan base, but she still stand on her ground and stay with Paramore where she belongs.

I am team Hayley, Jeremy and Taylor!

Paramore for life!
btw, this is The Swellers opinion; the band who gone tour with Paramore

MTV Asia review

2010-12-22T13:57:00.000+08:00

sabar

breaking news

2010-12-19T15:38:00.006+08:00

officially, on 18December2010, the Farro brothers leave Paramore.

Zac Farro and Josh Farro

now Paramore just left with Taylor York, Hayley Williams and Jeremy Davis.

somehow, for me, without the Farro brothers, Paramore seems not right
since they who originally formed the band
=(

this is sad!
but my support will go through all the way till the end.

if

2010-12-18T20:21:00.004+08:00

kalau tak die pon, yang lebih kurang macam tu laaa
here
blog aku yang ni pon tak kurang banyaknya juga
=)

2010-12-18T20:07:00.003+08:00

ini blog personal aku
maaflah tak banyak maklumat berguna
bukan tak banyak, tak ada pon, mungkin..
sebab aku ni tak kreatif, malahan tak celik perkembangan semasa pon
makanya blog aku ni tak menarik macam blog2 yang penuh informasi yang lain tu.
aku suka tulis apa yang terbit di hati and fikiran aku yang aku tak boleh nak luahkan kat orang
mungkin ambil terlalu banyak masa kalau itu boleh berlaku
blog ini tujuannya adalah lebih kepada personal life aku
daripada aku, untuk orang2 yang ada kena mengena dengan aku
ataupun hanyalah monolog yang tak perlu dipedulikan
mungkin juga cerita hidup aku yang selalunya tak menarik tu
terlalu panjang untuk dikongsikan di facebook, jadi aku post di sini
terima kasih kerana sudi singgah untuk ambil tahu apa yang terjadi dalam hidup aku
minta maaf jika terbuang masa kamu

sekian,
Syaheila Abd Majid
=)

*aku selalu rasa bersalah sebab blog aku ni tak best and buang masa orang lain

dewasa

2010-12-17T22:07:00.003+08:00

I guess these are the ways to be mature
and most probably, I'm not there yet

expression

2010-12-14T22:04:00.000+08:00

When someone tells you they’re a huge Paramore fan

When someone tells you they only like Decode

When somebody tells you they don’t like Paramore

When somebody says Hayley Williams can’t sing

When somebody says Josh is a douchebag

When somebody says Hayley, Josh, Taylor Zac and Jeremy are unattractive

inspirasi

2010-12-14T18:44:00.008+08:00

how can she not be loved?

sounds so good recorded or live

a tiny girl with loads of energy

the most friendly singer that ever existed

has all the time in the world to share her life on the net
Twitter , Tumblr

skinny jeans and t-shirt on stage but still looks awesome and incredibly adorable

now you tell me, how can I not be addicted to Hayley Williams?

vice versa

2010-11-26T14:42:00.001+08:00

and it never happened

2010-11-24T12:19:00.002+08:00

sbb apa aku selalu bising pasal kawan? sbb, come on laaa, unless u want to get married in the near future, we are just 20, by the end of the day, friends will always put a smile on your face. bila kaw ada masalah dgn bf pon, kaw akan cari kawan jugak. be real laaa, kawan tu penting!

do not read till the end if u know that this post is not for you

2010-11-24T11:44:00.002+08:00

kenapa aku marah dengan kaw? after all we've been through akhirnya i will be left out in the end because of your fucking boyfriend

aku serious x kesah bila kaw cari aku masa kaw tengah ada masalah jek, sebab aku dah biasa, biasa gila babi punya, sampai kalau siapa2 yang jadi aku, sumpah malas nak layan kaw dah, bila kaw dah rasa aku ni dah x diperlukan, you ditch me, just like that, by not noticing me any single details, by ignoring me like i never there in betweeen u and ur problem, and slalunya aku akan dpt tahu yg kaw ignore aku bila that news sampai kat aku dari orang lain

aku yg from the bottom of my heart ni sayang kaw, x penah nak putus asa, untuk setia jadi kawan kaw, yg x penah muak nak dengar masalah kaw yg x penah selesai tu, yg x penah serik walaupun kaw bt benda yg sama setiap kali kat aku, aku xpenah nak berkira sbb terima kasih kat Allah sbb Dia sediakan kawan untuk aku cerita masalah aku, yg kaw xpenah nak usaha pon untuk tahu walaupun kadang2 kaw ada tanya, tapi i don't see any effort that kaw mmg betol2 nak tahu apa masalah aku

kaw pulak, senang jek amik keputusan nak lari jek dari aku supaya xpayah deal dgn masalah yg kaw rasa x penting ni sebab ianya hanyalah melibatkan aku, not your fucking boyfriend, xpayah nak pening2 fikir, sebab aku ni hanyalah one of your pathetic friends yg boleh kaw put aside and x penting mana pon dalam hidop kaw, and at the end i will crawl back to you, kan? like ur thoughts

kaw taw x, Allah tu Maha Kuasa. and betol apa Justin Timberlake cakap, what goes around comes around. kawan baik aku yg betol2 baik tu pon boleh nampak walaupon dia x terlibat dalam benda ni, kenapa kaw x boleh? blinded by love kan. ikot suka kaw lah.

*slalunya aku post benda2 ni dalam bahasa kiasan yg aku rasa kaw xkan faham, sekarang ni aku straight to the point dan berharap kaw boleh nampak

buang masa

2010-11-23T00:12:00.002+08:00

my posts often short and meaningless for you
sorry for wasting your time here
when i have the time and mood to make a change in my life
i will edit the setting and make this blog private
sorry again

emergency exit

2010-11-23T00:03:00.002+08:00

yeahhhhhhhhhhhh, right
-_-"

cloud

2010-11-18T01:05:00.003+08:00

ever heard of telepathy?

we have it
in any kind of way
cool kan
=)

trend setter

2010-11-14T20:52:00.004+08:00

youth

2010-11-06T20:54:00.000+08:00

We are young
We run free
Stay up late
We don’t sleep
Got our friends
Got the night
We’ll be alright

Travie Mccoy, We'll Be Alright

that's how life should be, at least for the time being

2010-11-04T19:27:00.000+08:00

i am on holiday

2singget

2010-11-01T07:31:00.000+08:00

s: hi everyone, my name is Selfish

everyone: yeahhhhh, we can see that -___-"

s bukan nama sebenar

bad day

2010-10-25T21:11:00.001+08:00

1st day of final
and i am doom

susah sangat ke nak bagi soalan senang?

this is life baby

2010-10-21T20:16:00.000+08:00

hahhhh, this is what i am talking about all this time

why i can forget things easily, especially the sad part

i have THEM!!

kihkihkih~~

teheehee

2010-10-19T23:49:00.000+08:00

and we've got the front row =)

for sure they'll come again, in a short period

kan?

2010-10-12T10:59:00.000+08:00

diam kan bagus.. simpan jek dalam mulut tu.. jangan keluarkan.. once dah keluar, there is no way to take it back.. kalau kita tak mulakan, tak ada lah apa-apa masalah yang timbul.. bukan semua benda yang kita nak cakap kita boleh cakap.. biarlah dia salah ke kita betul ke, diam jek.. terlajak perahu boleh diundur, terlajak kata.........

not just another father's day

2010-09-05T21:37:00.000+08:00

it is in fact not a father's day
just feels like to post it

ABD MAJID BIN KAMARUDIN

my mom always said that i'm on his side all the time, maybe it is because we think in the same highway; he do not take a small matter seriously, he like everything to be simple, he wants everyone to be happy, he loves to lend his hand to anyone that he can use a help and definitely, he is never cheap.. i always ask him for a pocket money when i have 0 cash in my pocket(not in the bank) and he always gave without asking any further because he said that he knows very well how does it feels to be cashless and he don't want his children to feel what he had felt before.. even though he is not so educated, but my mom and him gave us all an enough education and hopefully become a success person someday, 2 of their child are successfully graduated though.. he gave each of us a luxury life while he just live his life with what left over for him and mom.. he always try to filled up our wishes whether it is impossible or not, and definitely he always satisfied our needs.. he never complain, but what he always ask from us is do not forget him when we have our own life. he is the greatest God's creation on earth, he is my Father =)

speechless

2010-09-01T23:45:00.000+08:00

let's just countdown to 19oct aitee people!!

penyibuk dan rakan2nya

2010-08-29T11:08:00.000+08:00

kaw ni !@#$%^& laaa.. kaw punye perangai dah satu hal, kawan2 hipokrit kaw plak satu hal.. eyhhhhh, geram plak aku.. kaw nak kata orang penyibuk, kaw tu ketua penyibuk kepada kawan2 penyibuk kaw tu.. aduhhhhh, kenapa laaa aku kenal kaw from the first place, buat hilang happening hidup aku jek.. aku ada life laaa untuk disebokkan, bukan macam kaw, menyibuk pasal life aku plak.. shut ur mouth and i'll be not kickin' ur ass

heart beat

2010-08-28T06:06:00.000+08:00

ohh, i could REALLY use a wish right now

don't be just a rumors
i'm waiting for you guys for so long
tell me the good news please

Materialistik

2010-08-22T22:45:00.000+08:00

mesti dah ramai yang tengok video ni kat FB kan, sbb dlm pengetahuan aku lah, dah ramai yg post kat FB

ini pendapat aku sahaja

mungkin pendapat aku dengan perempuan tu sama
yelaaa, bukan nak hina penjual burger, betol kata perempuan tu, untuk masa dating2 ni, boleh laa nak tampung, kalau long-term nnt? nak bgi anak bini makan burger jek ke? bukan cerita materialistik atau x, ini cerita realistik, siapa yg xnak hidup senang, cinta jek x cukup, kalau asek hidup susah jek, cinta tu kejap jek bleh hilang.. mungkin perempuan tu dah xtahan sbb lelaki tu asek ckp nak berubah, tpi still di takuk lama; jual burger.. kalo boleh bukak francais burger mcm ramlee burger ke otai burger ke, ok laaa jugak, even stall pon, tapi peratusan yg berjaya tu hanya lah sekumit, susah nak percaya org jual burger bleh berjaya.. x salah perempuan tu nak naek kereta, xnak naek moto or lori.. sakit pinggang kott kalo asek naek moto jek, lagi2 jalan jauh2.. pastu xkan laa kaw nak pegi dating kat pavillion naek lori? siapa x segan bebbbbb...

tapi, aku marah gak kat perempuan tu
kalau ye pon, nak break tu, jgn laaa terang2 bgi alasan dah ada lelaki lain yg kaya.. nmpak sgt hina dia yg jual burger tu.. lagi satu, kita perempuan nak hidop senang xsemestinya pon nak kena bergantung kat lelaki kaya, lelaki kaya ni pon hampeh gak, esok lusa dah ada perempuan lain.. bila kita ni berpelajaran, everything akan jadi mudah jika kita di laluan yg btol.. alih2 nnt lelaki kaya yg dtg cari kita..

DJ tu pon satu
bukannya nak meleraikan pergaduhan, lagi membangkitkan kemarahan ada arrr, suppose org2 mcm ni kte ckp dgn elok2, bukan dgn menyimbah minyak kat api..

karma

2010-08-15T20:27:00.000+08:00

i just want to be there when someone need someone
but there's always no one when i need a shoulder to cry on

remeh

2010-08-15T00:49:00.000+08:00

aku tahu
kau sakit hati sebab kau tak tahu
ditambah dengan aku lebih tahu
and kau tak diberitahu
then aku yang bagi kau tahu

tapi ada beza ke??
jgn laa dibesarkan hal yg kecil
aku tahu ke, kau tahu lambat ke
sama2 tahu jugak akhirnya kan?
kenapa nak ambil berat?
kita semua ni sama jek

kau tahu kan, apa sahaja benda yang aku tahu, kau akan tahu juga
even kau atau aku tak bagitahu pon, kita sama2 juga akan tahu

sekampung

2010-08-05T19:10:00.000+08:00

right topic
good manners
don't talk crap about others
then, I LIKE YOU

SAF 2010

2010-08-01T18:55:00.000+08:00

semalam lawan bola baling wakil untuk FSKM
kalah tapi best
sebab dah lama tak main bola baling ni
pastu dpt team yg cool
next SAF nak join lagi

manager: kak K
player: wawa, mira, ella, peqa, ayu, kak yong, fara, amy, alia, nuyun, apek, syaheila =)

tolong tolong

2010-07-31T22:12:00.000+08:00

serabut dah kepala aku
mana nak cari rumah ni??
klik sana klik sini call sana call sini
buang masa aku jek
aduhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
tolong arrr mane2 iklan jatuh dari langit

shhhh..

2010-07-15T17:27:00.000+08:00

silence
sakit kan....

R.I.P

2010-07-09T17:28:00.000+08:00

one day
when i ignore you
you will realize
how much you need me, but i do not care about you anymore

**kadang2 mmg aku xde hati pon

tahu tak??

2010-07-06T20:06:00.000+08:00

kaw rasa kaw kenal aku x? betol2 kenal ke? if you do,, really, really do.. you should know this; i don't give a damn about small matters.. and for me, love at this age is just a very tiny matter..

fact

2010-07-02T01:25:00.000+08:00

pernah dengar lagu "Cooler Than Me" by Mike Posner?? ohh, lagu tu sangat fit ntuk remaja2 zaman kini yg rasa dirinya cooler than someone else.. tapi3, aku nak buat satu statement disini;

yes, definitely,, I am cooler than YOU!

rock & roll

2010-06-22T04:31:00.000+08:00

ohh, ini baru jiwa!!

Dakota Fanning yang dulu2 budak kecik comel jek berlakon dalam filem uptown girls, dah besar cantik meletop hot siap jdi rockstar dlm filem ni jadi chechechechecherie bomb! haha, terikut2 cerita ni plak, rock2 hot gitu.. lagi sorang tu yg dia berlakon dlm cerita vampire yang aku x minat; Kristen Stewart memang sebijik macam Joan Jett watak yg dia kena bawak tu.. salute betollah Kristen, boleh buat aku berpaling tadah dari Hayley Williams ni, x sama langsung Kristen si rockstar dgn Kristen yang bercinta dengan vampire tu.. untuk cerita ni, memang aku bagi lapan belas star lah.. lagu2 band The Runaways memang akan berkumandang di mana sahaja aku berada lah nampaknya ni.. ohh, Paramore sntiasa di hati..

**play mode : repeat

mom =")

2010-06-19T11:22:00.000+08:00

muka punya pasal
aku dah abeskan beribu2 duit mak aku
ini semua new york skin solution lah yang pancing aku
pastu mak yang jadi mangsa
itu laaa, tunggu nak jadi billionaire x sabar sangat
aku serba salah sebenarnya =(
and that's why they are called mom

**sayang mak sangat ="))

harapan

2010-06-14T23:52:00.000+08:00

building a new life =))

**wish me luck

rockstar

2010-06-13T12:48:00.000+08:00

they just keep my head spinning

no turning back

2010-06-12T14:55:00.000+08:00

i do regret
really, really do

**can't hold back these tears, every single day

berserah

2010-06-11T04:28:00.000+08:00

kalau itulah ketentuanNya
xpelah, aku redha
hidup ni macam roda =)

**saya x sebok hal awak, awak jgn sebok hal saya ye =)

salute

2010-06-09T20:02:00.000+08:00

reality

2010-06-07T15:40:00.000+08:00

I can never fit you
I'm truly sorry

true

2010-06-02T16:43:00.000+08:00

aku ada ramai teman yang aku anggap sahabat. entri2 aku sebelum ni pon banyak yang aku cerita tentang kawan-kawan rapat aku, samada yang menganggap aku ni sahabat atau tidak. bagi aku, kawan tu ada di tempat kedua selepas keluarga. mungkin sebab itu aku kaya dengan kawan. aku tidaklah ramah seperti sesetengah orang yang punyai ramai kawan. mungkin aku pentingkan kawan lebih daripada kepentingan diri yang menyebabkan ramai yang rapat dengan aku. hidup aku lebih selalu dihurung sedih kerana orang yang bergelar kawan daripada keluarga ataupun kekasih. kadang-kadang aku rasa diri aku banyak buat silap sebab terlalu berlembut hati dengan kawan-kawan. aku dah cuba banyak kali untuk elak tapi aku tak mampu bertahan mungkin sebab terlalu kuat perasaan sayang aku kepada manusia yang aku gelar kawan ni. selalunya aku yang berlebih-lebih ambil tahu hal diorang sedangkan diorang sedikit pun tak fikir tentang aku. sepatutnya aku perlulah ingat, buat baik berpada-pada.

orang yang selayaknya digelar kawan bila

munculnya dia apabila kita susah, bukan sekadar munculnya dia apabila dia susah.
dia tidak putus harapan untuk perbaiki kesilapan yang kita lakukan berulang kali.
dia tidak lupakan kita sama seperti kita ingat pada dia.

kadang-kadang kekasih tu sementara, kawan tu yang selalunya ada. orang yang selalu pentingkan diri biasanya menyesal di kemudian hari. aku dah katakan sebelum ni, sekarang kau buat aku katakannya sekali lagi.

**kaw x layak dapat gelaran tu

turn it off

2010-06-02T11:18:00.000+08:00

The worst part is before it gets any better, we're headed for a cliff
And in the free fall I will realize, I'm better off when I hit the bottom

**give me some space, everyone

2010-05-29T20:56:00.000+08:00

1. what is your full name?
Syaheila bt Abd Majid
2. when is your birthday?
19 july 1990
3. what is your daddy's name?
Abd Majid b Kamarudin
4. what is your your mum's name?
Normah bt Shahari
5. how many siblings do you have?
lima
6. where do you live?
puchong, selangor
7. your favourite colour.
black
8. still studying?
masih
9. do you have a bestfriend?
ramai
10. do you love them?
sangat
11. pop or jazz?
rock
12. chicken or beef?
chicken
13. coke or 100plus?
coke with no doubt
14. what brand is your purse?
no purse
15. how much do you have in your purse right now?
outside purse, RM$$$, seboklah kaw!!
16. high heels or flat?
high heels blom lagi
17. skirts or jeans?
jeans
18. shirt or blouse?
shirt
19. watch or bracelet?
watch
20. favourite watch's brand?
devond
21. do you have girlfriend?
yup
22. do you have a boyfriend?
belom lagi
23. did you love her?
ofkos
24. did you ever forget him?
siapa?
25. facebook or myspace?
fb
26. what is your wet dreams?
banyak, hahaha =D

bff

2010-05-23T20:37:00.000+08:00

23/05/2010

gone to sungai genting, dekat KKB, kottt.. menggunakan khidmat WTF & WTM.. bermandi manda bersama bff tercinta.. shu ajim gjie meena yana fana, pelakon tambahan tengku wawa yus nia bulat, unfortunately alyp and ain x dpt join ='(.. sambut belated birthday shu and meena sekali.. rinduuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu sangat kat korang2

boleh x?

2010-05-19T23:50:00.000+08:00

Can we pretend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars?
I could really use a wish right now

p/s:kan best kalo jadi aladdin

plan

2010-05-19T18:28:00.000+08:00

cuti semester

kelas intersesi
batal

lepak saja
rabak poket

kerja???
aduhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

puas lah hati kau?!!

2010-05-10T21:45:00.000+08:00

kerana nila setitik
rosak susu sebelanga

macam fuck betollah kaw ni!!!!!

are you 2 or 20??

2010-05-09T13:34:00.000+08:00

i love u
seriously deeply in love with u
but still
u don't understand what i really want u to be
i've told u before
don't make me say it twice
this feeling could really fade away
please, change...

sekian terima kasih

2010-05-07T01:41:00.000+08:00

dengan itu, berakhirlah final aku untuk semester ini.. sejujurnya, aku dapat mengagak keputusan aku untuk semester ini, sangatlah MENGHAMPAKAN.. nak minta maaf awal2 kat mak sebab tak dapat nak bagi markah yang membanggakan.. mungkin culture shock dan definitely sebab semua paper theory and i hate reading.. i'll try harder for this intersession.. 3rd semester, wait for me, i'll show you what i really got

**janganlah sampai bawah 3 ye!!

blank

2010-04-27T10:08:00.000+08:00

i'm in my final mood
2 paper left
this week and next week
both are the hardest paper
but till now i have no idea how to study these 2 subject
hundreds of pages each
how can i finish it within 3 days??
help me please GOD!!

**pointer, tolong cantik sikit ehh

inspirasi

2010-04-18T21:20:00.000+08:00

"I wanna be a billionaire so freaking bad"

lagu yg tgh hot ni
konfem ramai yg taw kan
si pendengar Fly or Hitz mesti taw punya
Travis McCoy - Billionaire
pegi lah google

aku pon nak jdi billionaire, tpi xlah smpi freaking bad kan

mengapa i wanna be a billionaire:

x payah aku nak baca buku eco yg menyusahkan tu, aku upah jek accountant tlong uruskan untuk aku
mini cooper aku boleh beli 8, nak bagi hadiah kat orang yg boleh bt aku jadi rajin tu
aku nak tgk live concert paramore hari2 pon boleh
aku boleh blanje kawan2 aku yg kehabisan duet PTPTN tu, sewa umah diorang semua aku bayarkan *ohh, mulianya hati
shopping sampai jadi gila pon xde hal
boleh aku makan mcD 24/7, hah, mcD jek taw, x minx yg mahal2 pon
g kelas hari2 naik helicopter siap driver, xyah bgun hari2 pkul 6
setiap tempat yg aku nak pegi, aku soh orang letak aircond, biase laaa, billionaire kena demand sket, eyh silap, demand byk
mesti aku boleh jdi rockstar btol2, even suara ke laot, sape kutok, aku bayar gangster, tangkap kaw campak dalam laot, dengar lah suara aku dlm laot tu
aku nak pegi new york skin solution tu, japg muka aku lagi cun dri megan fox, hah ternganga kaw, kutok2 aku lagi

banyak lagi sebenarnya, tpi yg aku senaraikan ni untuk melepaskan geram jek
mimpi jek laaa aku nak dapat benda2 ni, blaja pon malas, hmmmmm...

*nak ngorat Prince Alwaleed Bin Talal Alsaud lah, boleh x?

mind your own business

2010-04-17T12:24:00.000+08:00

sumpah aku sangat annoyed dengan kau orang
apa-apa yang aku buat ada effect kat kau orang ke?
boleh tak jangan kusutkan keadaan?
kalau kau orang tak ada pon
sumpah takda apa2 effect kat aku
boleh tak buat macam biasa je?
kalau susah sangat, buat je macam aku ni tak wujud
tak payah nak libatkan dia
kalau tak puas hati sangat, say it to my face
biar aku jawab semuanya
tak payah nak serang dia
aku yang bersalah kat sini kalau ada kena mengena dengan kau orang
tak payah nak jadi radio buruk yang hanya tahu menyebarkan cerita-cerita buruk yang sedap didengar
kalau kau orang sebar cerita-cerita tu, memang kau orang puas hati, tapi fikirkan tuan punya badan yang kau orang burukkan tu
buruk-buruk yang aku buat, buruk lagi perangai kau orang tu

tolak ansur

2010-04-11T19:34:00.000+08:00

yelah..
gelapkanlah aku ni selamanya

ya, saya tahu

2010-04-08T19:54:00.000+08:00

yes, it made me feel better
especially when i am:thirsty,nervous,angry,exhausted,having spaghetti
ohh, i really miss you even though we meet everyday

but, it is not a good habit(i know)
my teeth are increasingly eroded
it makes me worried actually
i'm trying ok!!

p/s:kawan2, keep on reminding me ya!!

hands up

2010-04-02T23:34:00.000+08:00

entry ini tujuannya bukan kerana aku cemburu mahupun dengki
tapi seperti mahu menuntut keadilan yang tidak berani aku suarakan

situasinya begini

seorang pelajar menjadi kegemaran pesyarahnya(mungkin fikiranku sahaja, tetapi jelas kelihatan)

setiap kali sesi pembelajaran berlangsung, nama pelajar ini sering digunakan sebagai contoh oleh pensyarahnya

pelajar ini juga sering dipilih untuk mengulas tentang topik yang sedang dibincangkan

dan akhirnya, dihadapan kelas, pensyarah ini dengan lantangnya menyuarakan bahawa pelajar ini adalah pelajar harapannya

pendapatku begini

pensyarah ini dari mulanya gemarkan pelajar ini kerana penampilannya yang sentiasa kemas

pelajar ini sentiasa bersetuju dengan apa yg diutarakan oleh pensyarahnya

disebabkan pensyarah ini sentiasa memilih pelajar kegemarannya itu, makanya pensyarah ini terlepas pandang pada pelajar lain yang mempunyai pengetahuan yang lebih luas

apabila seorang pelajar itu menjadi pelajar kegemaran seorang pensyarah itu, mungkin akan menjadi ketidakadilan dalam beberapa sudut

banyak lagi sebenarnya yang ingin aku suarakan, tapi mungkin ini sudah memadai untuk kalian memikirkan situasi sebenar yang terjadi.. aku tidak hairankan dari segi layanan pensyarah ini kepada pelajarnya, yang aku kisahkan, fikirkan lah mengenai fikiran orang sekeliling..

p/s: and this is why i hate this subject

FYI

2010-03-27T00:08:00.000+08:00

currently, i'm in a LOVE mood

tiada konklusi

2010-03-25T21:30:00.000+08:00

kenapa ya?
setiap kali pon masalah yang sama timbul
ingatkan bila dah jangkau ke angka puluhan ni
mungkin tiada kekusutan seperti di angka belasan
tapi ia berlaku lagi dan lagi
perlu ke sesiapa menjaga kain sesiapa?
kain sendiri pon tak dibasuh bersih
sibuk membelek-belek kain yang lain
aku makan nasi aku
kau makanlah nasi kau
tak perlulah jeling-jeling ke arah aku
kerana aku tiada sedikit masa pon untuk berfikir tentang kau

p/s:untuk radio2 buruk diluar sana

chaos

2010-03-23T19:36:00.000+08:00

dalam satu minggu?
mati laaa aku!!!